Heart pain all the way ~~~~~

Monday ,
1:42AM ,
Mid Night ,


my heart pain because of u !!!!
u make me pain !!!!
this day i thinking of suicide my self !!!!
but i can't !!!!
when i was cooking , i was looking at the knife !!! i wanted to take the knife suicide !!! BUT.....
i think of my family , my friends , my kor , mui ,jie ,di and those ppl who care of me !!!! i think hard !!!! so , i didn't do it !!!! but , my heart keep pain all the way !!!!

now ...... I'm no longer the happy XiaoFishBall !!!!

NOW..... I'm the only XiaoFishBall with a painful heart !!!!
i always wanted to cry !!!
but i can't !!!!
my tiers can't come out !!!!
all my tiers trap in my heart !!!!
the thing is crying is my heart !!!!

can't b happy when i didn't let u go !!!!

when i laugh so happy , but..... my happiness will gone when i reach back home !!! n my sadness will start all over n over again !!!!